Major fight with my partner. We had a blow up over how I expressing opinions in the house. His overshadow the house and me. If there is a decision to be made of left or right or wrong, it is his to make. He may ask for my opinion, but I keep it close to the vest because, traditionally, if i answer wrong he will try mightilly to sway me in the direction of his opinion. Do not get me wrong, this is not with true ill intentions, but in a desire to connect. Misguided, maybe, but not truely intentionally harmful.
I told him that it was exhausting and hurtful to me to continue on like this. Isolating and just plain unsatisfying for me to continue to be in a partnership where even the most simple communications over TV shows, paint colors, and picking up sticks could turn into hour long debates about why my opinion is inferior and his superior with me on quite the defensive. Unhealthy and unaceptable anymore.
I think thats another step forward for me.
If he ever finds these words and finds the truth written out, he will be hurt. But its the truth. My truth. Like the Anna Nalick song 2 AM (Breathe) song says "And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd/Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud/And I know that you'll use them, however you want to" ... oh how i love song lyrics...
Here's to truth
Amy
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