Another achievement. Watched another show in my new toy, and iPod, while I did 45 minutes on the treadmill on aerobic conditioning setting. Damn it hurt. The last 10 minutes I swore it was impossible. My legs were starting to really ache because they were not used to being pushed so hard. My back was protesting. Perseverance and willpower won out. I made it for the full speed 40 minutes at 5 minutes of slightly slower cool down. The calorie counter had about 375 calories burned during the exercise session.
Honestly, I felt a bit woozy getting off the machine. Probably pushed it a bit harder than I should have. Wanted to sit down, but there was someone sitting on the one bench in the area behind me. Had been for about 20 minutes just watching the muted TVs. Drink a bit more water and pull back just a slight bit. Not much, just a slight bit.
Its going to take a few days for the 9/11 fog to lift. Its always hard. I finally told my partner about how hard 9/11 is. There was a brief conversation. And then it was dropped and he did not acknowledge it again,. Oh well.
There hasn't been anymore major falloutt from the fight my partner and I had. He is still brewing and stewing over it. He thought I was just being hurtful during it. Kept telling me over and over again that he did not tell me what to think. I agreed. And told him that he did not. But would always try to persuade me to the point of exhaustion that what he thought was better. I wonder if he realizes that he was trying to do the same pattern in that conversation?
Time for me to break free. Shed the baggage. Move forward. Make my stand. Be independent.
Spread my wings and allow myself to expand my circle. Find myself. Find my own Truth.
Amy
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