Feel the burn

My muscles are still aching as I type.  Fresh from the gym.  A mixture of aching and exhileration.  At the end of my work out I jumped back on my gym enemy - the elliptical cross training machine.  Oh how that machine is a torture device.  After three minutes my muscles were aching so bad I could not stand it.  Probably should have tried that machine at the begining.  It does not look formitable, but it is.  Pain in places where pain has never exsisted before.  Tommorrow I may try to conquor it first.  See how long my muscles can take it!

Other than that it was a nice workout.  20 minutes total on the treadmill and 5 minutes on the stationary bicycle on fat burn.   Might try to supplement some at home today too.

I am scared and restless right now.  There is so much needing to change.  The gruffness is coming out and I find myself snappy and not being the person that I want to be.  This is especially true with my husband.  My marriage isnt the greatest, but its not healing anything when I am causing problems.  Patterns are being changed if for no other reason that I am not going to allow myself to be held down anymore.  I am standing up for myself and letting my opinion be known and not overshadowed by his desires anymore.  Unhappiness in the partnership may be a reality right now, but it may not be permanet.  It took me a while to get here.  I have to see if he is going to change with me or if I am walking a seperate path.

Called about a new job today.  Took a lot of energy to do that.  So afraid they will reject me.  Am I not good enough?  Am I too fat and they will just  turn me away because of that?  The truth is, maybe.  The important thing is I made the call anyway.  Took the risk.  Took a chance.  Without taking a chance there will never be a payout. 

Find a new chance to take today for yourself.  Step out of your comfort zone once.  Do it for YOU.

Amy
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